Hope everyone had a wonderful week and weekend and hopefully you had a day off today.
We are on week 3 of Aparigraha – non-possessiveness, non-greediness, non-attachment. This week I wanted to focus on jealousy.
This is tough, because I experience jealousy, but don’t like to talk about it. It’s unflattering and ugly.
While it’s rare that I am jealous of someone else’s posture in a yoga class, I know many people who experience that and unfortunatley I know it deters a lot of people from coming to yoga class. There are times when it comes up but I always remind myself that if I put the practice in I could achieve most things. It’s not that I have such an amazing practice, it’s that I know my body and how it moves and I feel confident on the yoga mat, pelase remember I’ve been taking yoga classes for over 20 years, so this was a work in progress before I got it.
Jealousy comes up in other places for me. Jealous of the person that is super organized. Jealous of the person that can let things go and not hold a grudge. Jealous of the thin woman with no hips. Jealous of the person that can do math really fast in their head. There are a lot of things I used to be jealous of, like the latest and greatest gadgets or seemingly fancy vacations to all over the world. But I grew out of those jealousies and am genuinely happy when others get to go on exciting vacations and when they show me their newest toys.
During my Friday night Flow and Stretch class I recalled being “Teacher of the Month” at a studio I used to work for and having to answer some questions that would be posted in their newsletter. One of the questions was, “If you could have any natural talent, what would it be?” I answered with singing, and what I mean by that is not just holding a note or being on key, but opening my mouth to sing and having people turn around and look in awe, THAT kind of singing. I brought this up and asked the practitioners what they wished their natural talent was. We all shared and laughed and then came up with more realistic wishes for a talent we wished we had. Of course, we realized we could make those things come true. While I will never sound like Julie Andrews or Whitney Houston, I can take lessons to help with pitch and tone and learn how to use my voice. Whether it’s learning to play a musical instrument, knitting (which I have not stopped trying), tap dancing, whatevever you choose, we have the ability.
We don’t have to be jealous, we don’t have to even wish. We can be all we want to be if we try, just a little. Sometimes it just starts with a dream and then it becomes a reality. What are you dreaming about?